I have been wracking my brain, trying to figure out why I have been so “unsettled” the last few years of my life. There is the obvious marriage stuff and the move from WI to FL, but there was something else that had been bothering me. What people may not realize, is that Craig and I are young parents. We got married right out of High School and had an instant family. My entire life has been raising my kids and being a part of this cohesive family unit. I don’t have the high paying career, or the fancy job- I stayed at home and tried to grow responsible human beings. I think it worked…I hope it worked..who knows?!
So when we moved to Fl the first time, I had kids that were Junior High and Middle School age…well on their way to becoming young adults. My focus was holding us all together and keeping the smile on my face at the end of the day, no matter how hard the road got here. Kyra, then Emily, graduated and became their own persons, that purpose I had for the last 25 years of my life seemed to just vanish. So not only did I have these moves, and a marriage under construction, but also I was becoming unemployed from the best job ever. And you know what I mean. This concept of being “settled” is so foreign to me. I mean, I have a home that’s a place to call so, but I feel like I am always lining up for something else.
I think I have had just so much change in the past 3 years that my mind hasn’t processed it all. I walk into a Park thinking “How is this my life?” still to this day. I know I am blessed to be able to have this blog and The Relocated Tourist as a point of purpose to share magic and joy with the World. But without it, I truly felt like I was just floating here. They don’t give you a handbook after raising your kids that says “Here is what you do next.” (Although I would buy it). People who have had careers all of their lives have raises and promotions. After you raise a couple of humans, you get a great feeling, but the “What now” is scary. It’s just something I am still processing and working on, maybe other Moms out there will get where I am coming from.
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