We have been here for a week and a half now, and we are slowly adjusting to the new world around us. We have just hit the “peak” of when we would normally go home from a vacation here in the sunny state of FL, so now things are becoming VERY real. Again, I report the good, the bad, and the ugly, and today wasn’t necessarily an ugly day, as more of a heart break day. Relocating will bring up every emotion under the sun, and if you aren’t prepared for it, it can be a scary thing. So, let’s talk.
I was ok this morning, did errands with my Emmy girl and mailed out a package for my Dad and Kyra’s boyfriend. I got home, kids were in the pool and I just started to cry. It hurt to cry, it hurt to feel the pain, and I didn’t know what the heck was wrong with me. I was living my dream, why was I sobbing? Disney is in my backyard, WHAT the heck do I have to be sad about? Then it hit me, I just missed home. Not the one in WI, but the people I left there. I missed Kel’s laugh, Angie’s smile, and Mom’s warmth when I needed it anytime of day. It hit me that I wouldnt see them as much, if at all anymore, and it truly knocked me off my feet. Who knew dreams weren’t all candy coated?!?
I feel like we prepared well, that we did our homework, saved what we could, saw who we did, and made the time count. For those of you who are still counting down, IT WILL GO BY FAST! We are prime examples of this, and it came and went like a flash- so do what you can, where you are comfortable, so when the unknown shows its ugly head, you can deal with it. Save every penny, pack what you really need right away and nothing more, and enjoy every second because it goes by fast.
I was ready for the money we would spend, I was ready to see WDW anytime and enjoy it, but the homesickness is grabbing a tight hold and it’s not letting go. Maybe it’s because everything is still fresh right now, but I truly am having a hard time missing my Mom. Because I didn’t go to College, I have always been nearby to her, so there has never been a separation of this magnitude before. Yes, I know I will be ok, it’s just rough right now. I keep thinking I wish she could come over and see our incredible home, do lunch with me, give me tips on decorating, and find all the yard sales in town. My hopes is that she comes soon to relieve this dull pain I feel so I can get some relief soon. It’s our dream to be here, and she wants us happy, I just need to get a grip and try to deal with it.
I am figuring out my way around town, and learning how and when to avoid I4 and 192. I have made many efforts to introduce myself to clerks, gas attendants, and the likes to meet the locals since I am one now. I am hoping that a FL friend will give me a tour soon around the area because it would be nice to know the ins and outs of everything. I have learned that Wal-Mart on 27 is a wonderful thing in the morning, and can be quite pleasant to shop at without the crowds. But, it is hard to find everything I need quickly when I had my own local Grand Chute Walmart memorized so well. The prices for our family are affordable, and until I get the hang of coupons for Publix, I will continue to go there.
We headed to IKEA again for the girls bed frames, which Em found a daybed and Kyra found an Metal Black frame antique looking frame- they both love them. Emily’s room is all about “Tangled” and we are looking for the perfect lanterns to hang from her ceilings so she can see them when she goes to bed at night. Kyra has her perfect room that she always wanted, including her Beatles poster and new IKEA bookshelf to add to her décor.
We took tonight to get everything put together from IKEA and to catch our breaths. We have been busy with work, settling, and shopping almost every day this week. Got to love cheap coffee tables, cool décor, and frozen Swedish meatballs! We enjoy the home and pool, and we made it through our first major thunderstorm the other night. Every time it thundered, our house shook. With the vaulted ceilings and somewhat empty rooms, things echo a lot in here, so when it thunders, it is a nerve wracking. We had another warning this evening, so we got both vehicles in the garage, just in case.
No basement here, so the laundry room has become storage until we can afford to get a washer and dryer. You can only buy so much at a time, and we have had some great friends offer to help do our laundry, so we have a little time to buy those. We have found that local hotels will let you do the laundry at there facilities as well, with a cost of course. If you can find a Resort where you can do your clothes while doing something else too, that my friends, is golden.
We have bested the WDW Parks as much as possible, trying to maneuver as a local and not a tourist. Emily wants to meet Rapunzel so badly, but the line is incredibly long basically any time of day. I thought I could get there at open and then get in line asap, but the CM who works with her told me that her line is ALWAYS long because everyone who does the Cinderella Breakfast gets in line first, before the public ever gets through the gates, so I guess I need advice on the best way to see her. We want to get a great picture of Emily and Kyra with her and Flynn, then blow it up for Ems wall to frame it.
Tomorrow is MK again, with a good friend of ours. I always have a great time with the family and a friend, and it’s fun to have someone else to ride with to shake things up. The “Be Our Guest” Podcast team is here, so I hope to meet up with them tomorrow night for a pic and a chat.
I know that God has everything under control, and that I will be ok. I will be better when I get to see Mom again and get a hug from her- I can’t wait to show her everything. Thanks again to everyone who gave me encouraging words today, sometimes you can feel so alone and not even realize how many friends you truly have. God bless each and every one of you, and again, thanks for the support.