I woke up this morning, looked at my wonderful hubby Carl, smile and said “It’s May 1st.” He looked at me, smiled, and then he got the “faraway” look in his eyes. I know that look, it’s his “thinking” look. I know it well, because I do it too, and in that exact same moment- we said nothing and just stared at the ceiling. After a couple of minutes, we turned to each other and said “Oh my gosh, we are moving NEXT MONTH!!”
What does it mean? It means this dream is getting closer and closer, and the reality we have lived here in WI for the past 36 years is rapidly coming to an end. The plans we have made over and over again, and have talked about day in and out, are all happening. I am going to be honest with you all, I have had my moments where I thought “Maybe we should stick out another year here”- but all it takes is a Disney commercial, a song, or a kind reminder from the family of what it’s all about and I am back on track. I don’t think I would be human if I didn’t second guess occasionally- but I know it comes from fear, and that’s when I have to lean on my faith the most.
Since I am still getting over being sick, we opted on staying in town this weekend. After a great day with Mom yesterday, I came to the conclusion that I need to work on my “leaving” skills. I need to be strong for MY kids, and they don’t need a blubbering mess of a mother while starting our next chapter in life. I’m that person that I see someone start to cry and its INSTANT with me, unless I can distract myself, it just happens. I KNOW my Mom is coming to visit me in FL in the Fall, but the weekly lunches that we have together will be non-exsistant. So what can I do? I have to believe that the bond with my Mom is strong enough to span several states and a thousand miles away. She will be my biggest scar, but I know that she wants me to live my dreams.
Today was spent filling the garage with more stuff from inside the house. Instead of filling endless boxes, we now just take the item right to its designated table in the garage. Shelves and pictures are all off the walls now in most rooms, all but the kids. Everything that comes off is dusted and cleaned before its packed or thrown in the sale- it went pretty fast as we listened to Mouseworld Radio today. We made it a rule on the weekends lately to clean, pack, and purge all morning, and that no lap top or tv can be turned on until after lunch- we have so much to do and it’s just an easy distraction to have any of them on.
Relocation is all about pacing yourself and the time you are given to do so. We have been counting down forever, but seriously in full mode for a year and a half. I feel we have done everything we possibly can to prepare ourselves for the move- there hasn’t been a DAY that has gone by that we haven’t done something for the move. The key is to making sure that you do something, even if it’s as small as making a list for packing a room, will help reduce the stress of that final month. I can’t even think of how hard it would be if I waited until this month to pack, purge, and plan It all- total disaster. I do know of people who had to pick up and move quickly, but we are blessed with time since this move is our idea and choice, so it has been nice to plan It all out.
I have been putting all of our CD’s on ITunes all days, so we can sell the CD’s. I realize I am in a world of hurt if something happens to my ITunes account, but there are just too many to bring with. Carl has backed up our Disney music, so we are good in that department. While I surf the net, or write the blog, I am usually always downloading a CD to ITunes so I get them done in time. It seems every time I turn my head and look at something in our home, it reminds me of more I have to do. It’s more bizarre to me these days to not be doing something, than doing something.
Blogging has been part of my down time lately, as it requires me to have quiet time in my favorite recliner. The thing about recliners is that they have the power to make you very comfortable and sleepy- therefore its always dangerous for me to sit and blog, when I know it could lead to longer time in the chair- like today. I hope to update you as much as possible, as things are really starting to heat up now. We knew May would be a bit crazy, as we have Mother’s Day, Emily’s Civil War Reenactment, Meals with Friends, Yard Sale, Belle’s first Prom, Good-bye Party, Jessie’s 11th Birthday, Memorial Day, then last day of school. We will be blogging about the sale after it happens, along with many of the events I listed above.
So begins the end days of our household in WI. What once looked like a living room and kitchen, are becoming storage rooms for the yard sale. What once looked like cozy spots to sit will soon become someone else’s, and be replaced with camping chairs in our living room. The cabinets and drawers that held so many mismatched dishes, glasses, and knick-knacks now stay empty except for the one in use. The garage that used to hold our 2 vehicles is stuffed to the gills with 17 years of belongings for a sale that will be the sale to end all sales. 33 days left… oh, what fun we are going to have now!!!